I am a critical care nurse, a travel nurse, a travel lover, a dog lover, a dog mom, an introvert (although at work, you'd guess I am extroverted), an empath, an INFJ, a truth seeker, a dreamer, a deeply serious soul with a wicked sense of humor, an aunt, a friend, a daughter, and a sister. These are my thoughts and experiences about nursing and life. I have changed quite a bit since starting this blog, but to honor where I have been and where I am going I have kept all my entries whether or not they are memories that I want to keep. My goal in life is to obtain inner peace, be the change, and mostly to be a beautiful soul! Namaste, my friends!!

Sunday, October 29, 2017

The best is yet to come...



A year ago I was in a pretty dark place. I've learned a lot this year. I have gained a lot of insights into myself, learned a lot about life, and had some moments I wish I could forget. I've lost some friends, left some behind, gained some new ones and became my own friend. In between the dark and lonely spots I was blessed with a few brief moments of sheer perfection.
Being an aunt is one of my favorite things!! Spending a week with these guys was fabulous!


Going Lake Winnepesaukee (where my mom grew up and a place I adore) with cousins, aunt, and uncle!





Going to this city, monument, and museum that signifies the resilience and spirit of the American people and the land that I love!


Spending a little bit of time with my uncle, who I never thought I'd get to see again!



Spending an incredibly peaceful day sitting on this beach on Cape Cod, reading a Brene Brown book, and listening to my favorite "Chillaxin'" music! Followed by strolling through the charming downtown of Chatham, MA!



The rare moments when these two want snuggles!



Getting my first tattoo of something that's deeply meaningful to me! An empowering experience for me!


Bar Harbor with an abundance of moose stuff (I'm obsessed with moose) and a cold but stunning hike! I just knew I'd adore this place!



Pulling over in a random parking lot with a stranger and marveling together at the stunning sunset (pics do it no justice) in Sydney, Nova Scotia!

Standing at what felt like the top of the world- Meat Cove, the most northern tip of Nova Scotia!

Standing alone on this beach and watching the sun rise over the water at Cabot's Landing, Cape Breton National Park, Nova Scotia! Maybe my favorite moment on my Nova Scotia trip!

See my very first (and second) moose!
Hiking through the woods in the freezing cold, again rocking out to my favorite "Chillaxin'" music only to come over the hill and see this spread out before me!


Spending the day in this cemetary in Yarmouth, Nova Scotia finding my ancestor's grave. For without them, we would not be!


Taking pictures on the dock of one of the prettiest towns I've ever seen only to look over and see this dazzling full moon!
 In between these brief enlightening moments, these are a few of the things I've had to learn:

Lesson learned...


Maybe the journey isn't so much about becoming anything. Maybe it's about unbecoming everything that isn't really you, so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place. #wisdom #affirmations

"Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and so I chose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave." | Cheryl Strayed, Wild | #book #quote #fear


And finally:
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Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Light bulb moment

I realized something tonight- in expanding my capacity and ability to feel pain, God has, in turn, expanded my capacity for joy. I am SO blessed. Someday, I will get to experience such great joy and peace due to my journey. 

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Really?! I mean really?!

Fire alarm batteries always die in the middle of the night. Why is that? Every time they chirp the dogs bark. I have a migraine. A skunk sprayed and it smells like it's IN my house and it's driving Baxter crazy. Lily keeps peeing on my carpet even though I take her outside all the time. I hate being an adult. That is all. 

Saturday, October 11, 2014

Opinions

Pretty sad tonight. Wish others' negative opinions affected me less. God's opinion is the only one that should matter (and my own). I wish I could get to the point where this was true. I have to be true to myself. I just wish others wouldn't criticize me and my opinions. I respect that you may not agree with me, but you don't need to drag me down. 

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Dignity


This is subject I am extremely familiar with as an ICU nurse. Whether or not I agree with the method, I DO applaud this woman's attempt to die with dignity, not something nearly enough people get to decide on. I daily see people dragged through hell, pain, and suffering in their last days that is in no way dignified. I think it's incredibly brave of her to make her own choice and to share her story and to not care what anyone else thinks. Again, I'm not saying I agree with her choice, but I applaud her courage. Yes it is courageous! No I don't care what anyone else thinks about it. Nor does MY opinion of it matter. The right or wrongness of it is up to God, not me or you. What gives you the right to judge her?! One of my personal struggles recently has Ben with learning not to care what others think of me. Only God's and my own opinions matter. She's clearly learned this. Good for her!

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Who am I?

I am the girl in the background; I am the girl in front
I am the one in the corner at the party; I am the girl dancing on the table
I am the quiet and shy one; I am the outgoing and fun one
I am the life of the party; I'm the one who stays at home
I am the one who wants to be invisible; I am the one who just wants to be noticed
I am the smart one; I am the one who knows nothing
I am the humble, peaceful one; I am the one searching
I am everyone; I am no one
I have everything; I have nothing
I am the spiritual girl; I am the irreverant one
I am a walking contradiction; I am ok with who I am
I am beautiful inside; I am not yet beautiful outside, but I am working on it...
I am trying to find myself;  I know who I am
I am surrounded by people; I am so alone
I am the loud one; I am the one who makes no sound

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Cheers!

I feel like cancer patients should get a Dave Ramsey cheer when they find out they're cancer free. I'm cancer free!!! Occasionally my patients get better and I get really excited for them.